Prophecies and interpretations...(Part 2)

Rei III

There is ALWAYS room for interpretation for things like that, you know!

She had actually gone onto saying that, much to my surprise. I admittedly have taken some tottering steps towards realizing . . . that my fate needn't be set in stone, set by others. That I could actually dare think about forming some kind of relationship not condoned by Com . . .er. . . "my" Commander Akari: a relationship with Shinji Akari. What KIND of relationship I as of yet I have not been able to sort out for when did I have TIME to do that . . . just got the idea to DO something like this with the gift that my sister gave me (re: 62099). I had just barely gotten used to the idea that my own course in life perhaps need not be totally determined by a man. That the Commander should not be correct in his decisions for me and being totally within the right determining since he did bring me into existence.

. . .

Actually, looking back at it now that had always filled me with a sorrow and emptiness, the lesson pouned into my head that I, a young woman who'd been created and not born should NOT have any kind of life outside of what my creator says it should be . . . I kind of RESENT that! Not having enough knowledge on . . . being able to live anything like a normal life I'd taken it, not being able to do much else. Was almost starving for any kind of gesture of . . . friendship, bonding. Anything, even IF in retrospect the concern and bond that Commander Akari showed me had been . . .not for ME but what I could do for him. Bring his wife back to him. Bring about Instrumentality. Nothing more than a tool. A doll. A puppet with HIM pulling the strings. Only doing things for me, to aid me in order to manipulate me?

If not for his son before now, who gave freely of himself to help me and asked nothing in return I might not have been able to realize that Commander Akari might not be . . .what he tries to make himself out to be to me.

Is that the kind of man Gendo . . . "my" Gendo Akari is? I'd had the beginnings of a gnawing feeling that I really did not know what kind of man he was, but now?

Looking back at it all now . . . .Gendo's been using me all along along. All along! Just like he'd been using everyone else, even his own son he used me as well to get what he wanted.

. . .

Let us come back to that in a moment, right now I am more concerned about what my sister just said. What is this about interpretation? Given all the time, resources, and effort into interpreting those scrolls that SEELE has, just HOW could there be ANY room for a different interpretation?

. . .

Well, should I say that after all the conditions were MET that SEELE and Gendo wanted have been fulfilled so HOW can the course of things be changed NOW? Why should things change, now? Not that I am particularly EAGER to have to bring about Third Impact and Instrumentality (I only wish to share myself with WHO I wish, on MY terms and not EVERYONE ELSE), but still!

Is there a way out of this: my appointed fate? I now know that my sister did NOT "do her duty" as prescribed, but she says that she did. She did her duty, which was to SAVE humanity from extinction with Instrumentality, in fulfillment of SEELE's precious Dead Sea Scrolls, but did it such a way that negated Instrumentality's need in any way, shape or form?

I must have said the last aloud, because big sister feels a need to answer.

"Uh . . .don't know how to tell you this but another reason why I didn't go the Instrumentality route was that that . . . it no longer was possible due to certain . . . changes," she says soflty, gesturing to her wings slightly as they unfurl a bit as if to illustrate what she was getting at. "That and . . .by the laws of the reality both my Tokyo 3 and your entire WORLD now dwell within . . . such things as that and Third Impact . . .cannot happen."

. . .

What?

I . . .I actually find that I am NOT upset at ALL at that revelation. Point in fact I feel . . . elation! I knew that I did not feel comfortable with the whole thing, but . . . now that I find I cannot do it (something tells me that my sister speak the truth and nothing but it), I rejoice.

So . . .

Hrmph, let me just say I look forward to seeing what my sister has to say. I really am anxious right now to understand my sister right now. Maybe . . . just maybe, it'll be of use to me fullfil myself at actually SAVING my world, now that I cannot fullfil my "destiny" the way I had been created to fulfill it.

. . .

And when she goes onto explain her "interpretation" of the Scrolls, the prophecies found within and THEN tells what she did . . . .and she's . . . .correct. It would transform the whole of humanity, really. In some way, anyway, humanity would never be the same and the Earth (her Earth) would no longer be the cradle and grave it was turning out to be . . . but a nest from which a newly fledge humanity would take wing from, alight.

. . .

But still a small part of me, has to protest.

What is with me? I am rejoicing that I cannot cause Third Impact (what a catastrophy that would be) nor join all of humanity into one super entity, a group mind (with no privacy) but cannot accept . . . .this?

This, after everything ELSE I find I can swallow? I mean, after all, with every OTHER outrageous statement she'd presented ample proof (even IF we didn't go and burden you with the cumbersome details, reader). Or should I say sufficient enough for ME (and perhaps only me and her . . . we sisters ARE rather alike so know each other rather well). She did again here and I . . . understood it, but . . . .

"But . . .faster than light travel is impossible," I protest softly, shaking my head slightly as I feel a bit . . . light headed as I look down at the equations and technical manuals my sister presents me. It is only a "primer", and by the name present at the top I guess it was written (or at least compiled) by my sister's adopted father ("A. Quatermain" would happen to be Allan Quatermain, correct)?

What, bruised pride in faith in what "cutting edge" science theory being proven so wrong?

"Impossible?" my sister asks in a slightly amused voice. "Does that word have meaning for us, dear sister? Especially given our origins and what has all happened just today?"

. . .

Glancing down at the . . . .Rule, I shiver slightly, and then back up at my sister.

"Good . . . point," I concede. "So, tell me again . . . Champion why were you here on my world?"

By now I had learned that she and her family (what an odd . . . but appealing family) were all Champions, agents for that Celestrial below me. At His and His kind's bequest, they had come to handle business which They themselves could not easily do (for whatever reasons). Did it perchance have to do with me? Was my sister helping me because . . . she'd been ordered?

. . .

I could understand and I feel that she DOES care for me, she and my . . . er. . . her family, but still it would somehow . . . . lessen the event.

In the end, I had NOT been the object of their Quest nor was I even a means to an end, as I had begun to suspect. What my sister had given back to me was not meant to garner favor from me so as to get INTO NERV. Point in fact, their actions in the end might have been counterproductive (those NERV agents of Section 2 had not been amused at all with that camera trick).

"One of the factions we are trying to contact in order to avoid further bloodshed happens to be that shallow faced chap over there, the G-man!" she finishes up. "But as you can see the guy and his henchmen have been moving rather more quickly than we'd hoped for to say the least. If nothing else you've SEEN how effective his operatives can be."

"And how incompetent your guards were," she mutters softly to herself, shaking her head slightly in disgust.

. . .

That is not exactly fair. The agents who'd come to protect me had not been expecting to face the forces arrayed against them. They had died trying to protect me, you know, as was their duty.

But what is MY duty here? Forgive me, but even IF this seems rather abrupt I rather wanted to get a better . . . "feel" for this situation than what I had. My talking with my sister had . . . made it clearer, but still there remains a few things.

I still must decide whether or not to take up this Championship because one I take it up I shall never be able to put it down again, ever. But, is that so bad? One of the things that I had been offered was becoming a Champion like my sister here. She had added the stipulation that taking up that offer had all sorts of benefits (immortality?! Well, that's one way of avoiding being forced to come back after dieing, I suppose . . .and it had an appeal), but it also meant that I would no longer be able to return HOME.

What of Shinji?

But then again, if I should turn it down and they fail, would the blood of those killed from the conflict be upon my hands in some fashion or form?

Besides, what future would I have if ALL these factions (especially the HIGHER tech ones like this Star Trek faction with space based weaponry that puts Eva units to shame in shear raw power) actually form some kind of truce, trading agreements. Mutual defense pacts?

Eva would become just a footnote and I a tool without purpose rather too suddenly for MY taste. I wish to at least have SOME time to . . .figure out what to do with my life after Eva before I'm thrown to the wolves, as it were!

. . .

Or am I trying to come up with noble and high excuses for the temptation I feel right now? Rei II my sister. Her father and mother. Uncles and aunts.

I . . .want that. Ah, see my sister had told me that as a Champion I would be based out of Terra Prime (the world they come from), an alter- Earth were magic exists. All sorts of oddities abound and where . . . I wouldn't be so . . .odd.

She had added that she'd practically bend the Doctor's ear off until she got her way IF I should wish to join their particular party. I suppose that the only REAL thing here that should keep me here would be . . . Shinji Akari. What is he to me and me to him. What is this bond I feel between us, exactly.

Wait . . . my sister here has a lot of insight into HER Shinji and her bond with him. She'd made a choice that separated themselves for a LONG time here. Only a few years for her, but two decades for him. She actually never expected to see her Shinji Akari again. What IS her Shinji to her exactly. I know from what I see in her eyes when she talked of him she hold him close to her heart, but . . . I don't know in what manner. And I don't know why it meant that she would choose to be away from him, exactly.

What kind of world is HER version of mine, exactly?

1. I want to know about it so maybe I can make MY final decision here (and perhaps make that wish offered in the best and most beneficial manner).

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