What Have I Become?
The Black Void - Episode 3499
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Baras and I simultaneously strike; Gustav never sees it coming. Baras
quickly slaps his hand over Gustav's mouth to keep his screams from
alerting anyone. That will, we hope, at least give us a chance to walk
out of here and get a ways off before the rest of the guards come after
us.
Gustav's expression is one of shock, horror, and...anger. I stare at him dispassionately. When did I become so cold and callous about killing? I had taken lives before this [2675 & 2682] but that was in the heat of the moment. This was premeditatied and in cold blood. I suppose spending nearly a year, between the brothel and here, in forced servitude at Gustav's behest is largely responsible for my hardening. By all rights, I should be frantic over what I've done, like I was when I killed Maris. But I'm not. What have I become? Baras lowers Gustav's body to the floor. I continue to stare into his shocked, lifeless eyes, trying to feel...guilt? remorse? fear? something? At least relief that my friends are now safe from his reach? Nothing. I just feel cold. Baras breaks me of my trance, placing a hand on my shoulder. "Come on Harry! We've got to go, now!"
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Xavier
4/15/2007 4:17:22 AM
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