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Mina

Yes, I had come to this particular spot in the room to speak to this . . . .female. While there are other groupings out here abuzz with all that is going on (and ASKING what the Hades is going on), I feel the need to be here.

Yes, yes. I could have, before coming over here, perhaps soothed a few jangled nerves over the visitation of a real Angel (seems to have upset a few tightly held world views out there Astra, shame on you). However, that's not something I felt a need to do. One must come to grips with the facts presented, you know. Not try to hide behind comforting lies and all that.

Besides, I am more than sure that those groupings will remember prior encounters with god like entities and put this off as yet another one (albeit the most powerful one to date). Star Trek, I was told by those nice young women, Betty and Ragan, about such things happening on a regular basis in that television drama. Who knows, they may have something at that, but that's not for here and now. I opted to not enter into their spheres of discussion.

Others were heart warming reunions between lost kin (between the other pilots of the Eva units and their mothers). That was something that, while nice to watch, must not be interrupted.

Another group I came across had been interesting. Yes, I could explain to some loudly complaining engineers from the Enterprise about how our actions with the phasor banks nearly melted down with our little traipsing through their computers (re: 63629), even on stun setting.

Another had been lambasting us for having basically shown the Enterprise's existence to a world they deemed unready for it.

B'Elanna had handled both groups, using very high grade weaponry (Star Trek: TNG techno-babble!) and computer diagrams to nicely point out that IF that panicky JSSDF officer (who's been relieved now of all duties, thank God) had utilized a nuclear device upon the city . . . it would have been disastrous. At this time this "Iconian" transport system is still running amuck. B'Elanna tells me (and now them) that the resulting explosion would have not only incinerated by the atomic fire. But the Iconian transport sytem would have picked it up, magnified it and delivered a fiery death to a LOT of other endpoints on the system . . . quiet a few possible Federation planets. A slight engineering mess and bending (perhaps breaking) their holy of holies was small change compared to THAT!

"Does the Prime Directive go so far as to say that countless numbers of Federation civies die to uphold it?" the elfin woman sneered. "Kirk would spit on you from his grave if he'd have heard this, you know."

Didn't totally mollify them, but the last had made quiet a few wince. Whatever else you may say about their late Captain (from what I had seen whilst humoring Betty), he wasn't the type to let doing what was right (rules against or no) and his crew had . . . admired him for that.

"And another thing . . .," B'Elanna continued. "Do you tribble loving patacks know about the Dawntreader? Think that they're going to not share with this place? Well, let me enlighten you about something about them!"

No, I felt B'Elanna had had things well in hand in enlightening the ignorant. I felt a need to be here, and thus I am! Here and I shall give this woman a piece of my mind!

"Rieka did not have anything to do with the attempted murder by Gendo, I finish up. "Anything, that is but being an innocent and trusting little girl used as a means to an end."

Not to mention being in cahoots with that fiend, Gendo Akari in keeping my daughter here under his thumb. Not real healing the psychological scaring from Reika's death at her mother's hands at ALL, making sure that the doll like personality she soon withdrew into was maintained. Doing her part in Gendo's scheme to- to make sure that only the bare necessities for life, the LOWEST level of Maslov's Heirarchy of Needs. . . . Can't have the girl he'd attempted to make into a puppet go and reach self actualization and thus ruin his precious scenario with Instrumentality and all that bloody rot!!

. . .

Pardon. I still get angered about it even to this day. That is one of the reasons why I had been less than thrilled to coming back to a world like Rei left... That and . . .

Strange what one can learn while chatting with an alienist turned empress . . . Was eye opening to learn just HOW, through Diane Walker, Rei's (and Reika's) Gendo Akari went about controlling his . . . assets.

Damn the man to Hellfire!

But I digress.. .

"And you know this," I hiss softly, letting a bit of venom into the last. At least I have a small, petty satifaction at seeing Akagi flinch at the last. This . . . fool had, after all, seen the very video recordings God only knows where either the Doctor and Inquirer had found whilst in that wild rampage or those commandeered super computers (those Magi systems worldwide) search through this world's computer networks! She knows but for blind prejudice she STILL sees Reika as someone to loath. Sees her as competition for the attention of a man who is not worthy of even being given the time of day!!

Yes, I do believe truly that our "resident expert" in this sad little play called Neon Genesis Evangelion had been spot on in saying that intellectually brilliant though Dr. R. Akagi was an actual bigger fool in the field of emotions than her mother, Dr. N. Akagi!

"Mother, please?" Rieka says softly, looking at me.

She's still very near an emotional collapse, Reika sends to me, concern etched in her thoughts and her face. Push her too hard with too much and she'll snap and that is not something we actually need right not, ne?

. . .

For you I shall do it, I send back softly, smiling a bit towards my daughter before turning back to Dr. R Akagi.

"A little peace between you and her," I finish. "That is not too much to ask, all considered?"

Reika

Dr. Akagi (junior), stares after the way my mother had left for a few seconds, and then back at me.

Several emotions flash across her face.

She looks over at her mother, how looks more than a bit . . . lost.

"I-it was all that bastard Gendo's doing . . . wasn't it?" she says in a small, lost voice. "Why did I ever want to be with him?"

. . .

Was that not what I've been saying all along?!

Reigning in a flash of annoyance and a snippy retort, I slowly count to ten silently. Odd to now know what those feelings I had had back when I had just been merely Rei Ayanami. Back then, I had felt this feeling but I had not know what it was (and my now departed Angel heritage had made it too diffused for me to feel it long enough for me to study it). Now?

Oh my goodness, how OFTEN I got annoyed with a LOT of people here back at NERV!

"Yes, it was at that," I reply to the first, deciding to not touch the second.

With a slight shake of her head, she then does something in the way of accepting the olive branch. Both stubborn pride--something I find that I understand, given that I still am rather . . . angered at the elder Akagi for what she'd done to me in my first incarnation--and the dawning realization that her mother really could use some kind of emotional support after all the shocks to her system today curtail anything more . . . substantial.

So be it. I made the effort and that she would even go as far as she did, after everything, is enough for me I just hope that it is enough because I have this ODD feeling . . .it might help here soon.

As for the elder Dr. Akagi, I perhaps should try to build bridges with her as well. However, I find that I have some understanding just why Dr. Ritsuko Akagi was more than a bit hesitant (more stubborn) in letting go of old feelings. With her, the diverting of Gendo’s attention unto myself and away from her is the root of her grudge against me, as misplaced at it had been. Geno Akari is nothing to me now! Nothing!! Would not cross the street to put him out if his hair was on fire, now!

I am able to see now the subtle clues I could not have noticed before when I’d been . . . blinded by what Gendo had done: he was just using me. Had no real affections for me, even though I now know what I felt for him was like a daughter’s love...

. . .

Sometimes the worst hates of all are from betrayed loves, you know?

Hrmph.

With me and Naoko Akagi, I fear that the . . . . gulf between her and I (at least I all considered) lays in the fact that she killed me!! You cannot really expect me to actually get OVER something like this like nothing was amiss, right?! I know that she is also a victim of Gendo’s manipulations, but I cannot as of YET bring myself to go over there and . . .and . . .

Sigh, perhaps it is for the best I cannot bring myself yet to go over there.

No, the thing to do right now is to let the Akagis go right now and concentrate on the things my "gut instinct" say I should take care of, the first being Rei I.

Honestly, I want to know what is UP with her! She is an anomaly that is more than a bit . . . worrisome for me. That and just out and out confusing.

Then again, I AM still rather new to this business and still have much to learns about the ends and outs of analogs. Still, I must ask myself . . .

WHY, if she is an analog of me, is there nothing beyond simple curiousity happening when she greets me? I mean when I met Rei, my older sister, it was JUST like meeting a long lost (and beloved) kin. Granted, I mistook her as the . . .

No, let us just go over to Rei I, who is having an animated discussion with that Commander of the Dawntreader and quiet a few people who look like her . . .twin. Something says to me that it shall be . . .educational. Elrondir is already over there so he shall be able to "bail me out" if I go and put my foot in it, anyway.

"Well," the young girl says slowly, looking oddly over at the Yui Akari clan. "I . . .somehow feel a connection with those women over there. Like at one time . . . I'd been . . .them."

But let us now turn to a long overdue meeting.

1. "So . . .when and how did this happen?" Fred begins awkwardly. "Maybe we could begin with the wings, if I am not being nosy?"

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